I was getting bored of my theme, so I zhooshed things up a little! (Man that took a while to get that spelling right)
So we’re nearing the end!
And I get that you’re highly anticipating the ending// these 2 girls reuniting butttt you gotta hang in there!
Don’t know what I am talking about?
Today’s post, also explorative medium! (Three in a row, wow that is a record for me :))) )
At every junction of my life, I felt the need to strengthen my dam and not let the water out. I would only ever do so, to a select few people and it would only ever be a little pond-ful of water.
I know it’s unhealthy to think about it but sometimes I wonder if people love me as much as I love them. If they care about me or they’re just nice to me because I care about them. I would move mountains if I could for some people, but would they at least hold me when I am down?
I know it is my insecurity. But I can’t not feel this way.
Reading that letter by Xavia, really moved me.
And I think it goes to show how similarly different we are, because I wrote something along the same lines about her, ages ago too!
Why does everything remind me of her?
And how much she means to me?
Can’t I please get some sign?
I am hanging by a thread
Just anything will do
My phone pings and it’s Ellie
Ensure you swiped to read the diary entry!
And I’ll see you tomorrow!